The land of what if

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When I was a kid, I lived in the land of “I wanta be.”  Emulating the hero’s of the day, I wanted to be a Veterinarian, an astronaut and a priest.  All lofty goals but alas none to be.  Not in the moment but lost in a world of illusions.

As I got older, I crossed into the land of “When I…”  When I get out of this stinking school, when I graduate, When I get a job etc.  A land of promise and dreams for sure.  Definitely not in the moment.

Than the car swerved and I ended up in the land of “Now that I…”  Married, kids, jobs.  a land of rewarding toil.  Wasn’t a bad place but it lacked inspiration.

Than the damn car ran off the road into “Woulda, coulda, shoulda..”  Gee if self-doubt rained I woulda been king of that land for sure.  Still occasionally go to visit but not sure I live there anymore.

I am convinced I have crossed into “What if land…”  What if this happens or that happens, what if I did this or that?  A land of uncertainty.

When will I get to “I am glad I am here world?”